How do i fix my relationship with my mom?

Hey. My mom and I got in a huge argument yesterday. I said some bad things and I feel terrible about it. She said that "she finally sees the real me." I've never talked back to her in my life and I don't know what happen and I was tired of being stomped on and walked all over by her. She keeps saying i'm gullable and that I dont have a backbone. And our particular argument she told me some things that I didn't think were true and I just finally blew up at her and I yelled at her and said terrible things. I didn't cuss or anything, but I said some hurtfull things. Anyway, I apologized to her yesterday night and she said it was okay. Today I apologized to her again and she said "Its okay, but i'm glad i got to see the real you." Now I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone in my life other than her and my brother and a few friends. I feel like we're never going to get over this bump and that she just thinks of me as a bad person now because apparently she can't stop saying "I got to see the real you." I considered suicide, but I'm too much of a wuss to go through with it. What should I do?